"Fuck happy endings"


I'm Keziah

Don't think that you know me
cause you don't.
NYP BM
keziah@live.com.sg



你的热泪 比我激动怜惜
我发誓要更努力 更有勇气
请容许我 小小的骄傲
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title: school
date: Friday, December 11, 2009
time:8:47 AM
Ecns teacher is crap!
Keep crapping like @#$%^&
Now that he's over MJ,
he talked about the fareast plaza chicken rice, then KFC.
Made me hungry alr ):
Then he said that eating too much chicken will grow breast!
Waulau irritating sial zzz whats that related to ecns? O.o
He's damn gay zzz

OH WELL I'm like really hungry alr.
What shall I have later ?
IK! Just buy coffee and chill.
I should be full then.

Life is boring >.<


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title: Happiness is near.
date: Thursday, December 10, 2009
time:9:44 PM
Went swimming and studying with yeeting yesterday.
did masks and everything.
Do we look alike? O.o











Went swimming again today, this time alone.
Although a little emo and bored, it was quite relaxing.
Can spend time so I wont think so much.
It will also help me to sleep better at night, I hope :)
Then took shuttle bus to SSC and walked all the way home.
Aroung 6 bus stops away ok! :D
God bless me that I would get slimmer soon pleaseeeezz!

I have no right to say anything.

Im tired of crying.
From now on, I will force a smile when I feel like crying.
It will surely feel better :D

PROJECTS !@#$%
School sucks a lot now ):



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title:
date: Wednesday, December 9, 2009
time:11:49 PM
同样的一场日落
同样你还是没说
只是抱紧我
时间一到就松手

你用一万个理由
都比沉默还温柔
为什么爱我又不断退后

你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛

我要 相信你是爱我的
我要 相信你是勇敢的
我烦 时间是最残酷的
我怎么等

我要 相信你是爱我的
不要 当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯

我用一万个答案
解释我们的距离
到最后发现我全都猜错

你害怕的是什么
你想要的是什么
站在你背后
我连呼吸都痛

你怀里有太多问号
告诉我怎么依靠

我要 相信你是爱我的
我要 相信你是勇敢的
我烦 时间是最残酷的
我怎么等

我要 相信你是爱我的
不要 当我每次唱情歌
眼里总有太多泪
不停拉扯


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title: Tell me what love is.
date: Sunday, December 6, 2009
time:11:15 PM
"that a successful relationship requires falling in love many times, always with the same person. Always with the same person, but deeper and deeper every time. Each time on a whole new level you together open in love and discover the truth of your beloved anew. There is no limit to the beauty of your beloved. If you think you've reached the end, stop generalizing. "


Rmbr I did a project for eff com, 'selecting a life partner'?
I said that I would blog about it.
Now that I've time and I'm bored, I will.
These are all my POV+ research, if you dont like it, too bad.
Bits and pieces I picked out.

Questions to ponder...
Do you bring out the best in each other?
Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare and control?
What do you bring to the r/s?
Do you bring past r/s, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain?

You cant take someone to the altar to alter them,
You cant make someone love you or make someone stay.

If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and 'a life'; you wont find yourself making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain.

"Seeking status, sex, security are the wrong reasons to be in a r/s"

What keeps a r/s strong is trust, communication, intimacy, a sense of humor, sharing tasks, daily exchanges, sharing common goals and interests, giving each other space to grow without feeling insecure, giving each other a of sense belonging and assurances of commitment, and care and concern for your lover in your own ways.

If these qualities are missing , the r/s will erode as resentment withdrawal, abuse, neglect and dishonesty; and pain will replace.


Take your time in consciously and proactively in choosing a life partner. If you choose carefully and well, you will have a friend, a lover, a safe confidant, and a supporter. You will have a committed partner for life with whom you can share the ride of your love's seasons and life's miracles.



Not very well done but who cares.

EH IM DAMN BORED LEI ): Feel like sleeping, but cannot ): I miss you...


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title: date:
time:9:02 PM
I'm gna change my blogskin after exams,
Pink is a happier color.
I need more new photos too.
Give me good ideas on my blogskin!

Access on Tuesday,
POA on friday.
FAINTS!

Those messages you sent broke my heart.
I'm sorry if I'm very fked up in POA lesson on friday.

This is the first time I ever felt this lost.

You got hurt, you didnt believe in love.
The only girl you trusted failed you.
Now you only trust money and your family.

But please trust me that I love you baby.
I am so in love with you, you are always my priority.

You always say that I didnt understand you,
and you didnt need to explain things to me.
But if you dont, how would I know.

People say so many things about you.
Like you have another gf, you are only playing with me, etc.
But I never trusted those words, I stil believe in you.

Baby you know I'm true.
Give me time, I am growing.
Honey I want no goodbyes.

I wished we never changed...

I LOVE the way you hold me,
the way you try to protect me from the rain with your hand,
the way you hug me so tightly when you're cold,
the way you stare at the computer screen,
the way you smile at your customers,
the way you look at me when I make a lame joke,
the way you bathed Toto and Gucci,
the way you hold my hand and bring me around places,
the way you cooked rosty and chix chop for me,
the way you waited hours for me when I was working just to send me home everyday w/o fail,
the way you say sweet things to me at night,
the way you tell me things below my block,
the way you send me right up to my apt,
the way you hug and kiss me when you bid me goodbye.

You are adorable! Tell me, how to not love you ?

Whenever I'm with you, time passes extremely fast,
I never regretted loving you, being with you.

ILOVEYOU:)


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title: XYZ
date: Friday, December 4, 2009
time:2:19 PM
You really scared me ):

I ought to trust you.
But even so, you have your right to do whatever you want.
I was wondering...
Do you miss me as much as I miss you?
Do you still think of how we were 9 months ago?
Do you still want me as much as you did?
Do you still love me?
It hurts.


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title: poof!
date:
time:2:19 PM
I never thought that it would hurt so much.
I never knew it would be so hard.

You said it clear enough.
Bye love.

):


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title: When I thought that things are getting better.
date: Thursday, December 3, 2009
time:9:08 PM
I never thought that this day will come.
Life is making a fool out of me.

I won't regret, I did my best.

Exams are a bore, School's a bore.
I need to get my ass out to work alr.
I end school at 5 almost everyday,
how to get a job that can support me and my wastage siol ):

Havent been updating blog, lazy.

Love me.


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title: too much craze
date: Monday, November 30, 2009
time:1:17 PM













Damn, sis returned home ytd with couz and showed me her new blackberry.
Then she reminded me that they are going genting this morning.
SIANZ so now Im in poor poor Singapore taking my accounting ICA in 2 hrs time.
I want to go overseas with friend, somewhere where there's only me and my friend.
PLEASE bring me leis! I'm so jealous of sissy. She went indonesia for a week w her friends,
returned on saturday and off to genting this morning! WTF! ):
Admiral bar & grill @ old nelson road (my ex workplace) ,hilltop relocates!
Adm is moving to KATONG VILLAGE and has stopped operation here in sembawang ):
SO SO SO much memories! The happiest and saddest!
Met Josh there, met great friends, including Xavier.
Whenever I'm down and need friends, they are there.
They saw me through so many things from when I saw with loser ppl until now.
Last day at admiral, so many ppl were very emotional.
everyone were trying to make the most out of that few hours.
Reached Adm at 6, and stayed all the way through.
Saw so many regulars there and I suddenly had that feeling I thought I lost.
Noone understands how emotional someone can be...
Yet again, I really miss those times.... ):
I am feeling like how I did when Xavier left.
Sometimes when you put too much feelings to somewhere or someone
and the place/person leaves and never come back,
Your heart will hurt so bad, and it will be so irritating when you cant stop thinking about it/him.
BUT the best part of it all,
it's because you love, you hurt.
& you look back and know the pain is all worth it!
Well, they are never really gone :)
GO TO FACEBOOK FOR PHOTOS!
Ilovemyfriend!


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