We were never one.

2011-04-13T01:59:00.001+08:00

CHANGED URL! www.chiamingxuan.blogspot.com GOGOGOGOGO!

2011-04-02T02:36:00.002+08:00

APRIL FOOLS!

Favorite chocolates!

I know, I have not being blogging for so so long.

YEAR 2 FINALLY ENDED!!

The worst but most fun part must be TEP.

9+9weeks of working at a call centre and Cheers.

There's actually nothing much to blog about.

Is it that hard for 2 individuals to be happy together? When all things are at their worst and im still hoping for the best, am i being optimistic or plain stupid? When I love, I go all out. And when I go all out, every part of me hurt when something goes wrong. But when I'm happy, everything's worth it. I know, I'm contradicting myself.

Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

2011-02-27T22:10:00.002+08:00

BATAM W/ BABYLOVE!

Super enjoyed myself!
Vietnam in april? :D

New header picchax yo.
Haven't been having time to blog.
Classical starts tmr, damn fast right.

TIME PASS QUICKLY PLEASE.

When love strucks.

2011-01-31T00:33:00.003+08:00

GONG XI FA DA DA DA CAI!

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL!

Time passes damn fast, I rmb last year's CNY like it's yesterday. I'm damn happy that my relationship with everyone I LOVE is awesome! I wna take this opportunity to wish everyone HENG HENG EARN BIG MONEY, DA JI DA LI, XUE YE JING BU, BU BU GAO SHEN! In other words, may all have a healthy and prosperous rabbit year ahead.

*Government encourages all to fuck like rabbits and make more babies for this rabbit year!*

Sorry for not blogging for SO SO SO long...

Working at Cheers is getting so boringly-tiring.

Hate school more and more... :(

I WANT TO GRADUATE NOW PLOX! SIAN :(

Totally no life. Wake up, Cheers, B's/Home.

But boy I'm glad that everyday is a happy day.

Went shopping with Ting, bought hair curler. MY HAIR IS HOPELESS :( Damn...

WHO DOESNT LOVE THE RAIN?!

So shiok to lie in bed and chill. But to those who have to do last minute shopping, sad life liao lorx. Went Chong Pang market just now and it was raining cats and dogs. We couldnt even go look at the plants lor...

Know whats the thing I hate most now?

That I have no one to hug when I'm cold and no one to hug me when he's cold.

No one to cuddle with me under the blanket, no one to company.

To the man I love most, I love you. I'll love you always, no matter what happens now.

2010-12-31T00:21:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 2011!

I AM GOING TO MAKE CHANGES!
Firstly, I'm changing my blog url (and skin, hopefully...)
Secondly, I'm......... SLIMMING DOWN!
Thirdly, I'm gna start another blog to do a journal on my dreams so that I can look back. May probably just use chiamingming.tumblr.com to do so.
Fourthly, I'm gna think of more resolutions!
Lastly, I'll love myself more.

I think that my life is veli messy now. So many things going wrong, so many things happening that I hate, so many thought running in my mind. It really sucked.

Ok await my news! Lublub.

2010-12-20T21:57:00.001+08:00

Wondering why I haven't been updating?

Well, I am!

www.chiamingming.tumblr.com!

FOLLOW ME!

2010-12-12T23:41:00.001+08:00

www.chiamingming.tumblr.com

I am a noob so anyone who knows bout tumblr, please teach thanks.

2010-12-06T10:18:00.002+08:00

YAY congrats! SO SO SO HAPPY!

Looking at my friends, I cant deny that I am not tempted & I cant envy them more for having something to really call "ours" already. We wont know what's ahead, but I wish you all the best.

1 last week to finishing the first stopover in TEP. 18 more weeks to year three. 30 more weeks to graduation. A whole life more till I'm done.

I dont know what I want in life. But i'm sure I definately do not want to shake leg at home waiting for my husband to feed. Neither do I want to stick around with him 24/7 cos I have no life.

It would be a waste for my 14 years of education. Even if im not educated, I dont want to be a loser.

Perhaps I could really 'make it' in life... Perhaps my dreams and ambitions may really come true.

Perhaps I'll have someone who want me more than I want him, need and love me more than i do... Perhaps I'm having the best of the world, now.

Have to get my life back together. I hate how my family is like now. I hate how I cant communicate with anyone. I hate how competitive this society is.

I hate reports. Got to hand them in this friday. I need to bang my head really hard.

2010-12-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

3 things you can tell from this photo!

1. Finally permed!

Its only yesterday that I permed my hair at Kimage.

Everyone says my curls are supposed to be SUPER CURLY & BOUNCY, but its so 'straight'! Am making my mum call that guy and tell him this, I demand a refund or redo of my hair. Come on, I (ok, my mum) paid a freaking 500bux for this! Damn disappointed...

2. I've been eating well!

My face just swell up! Eating so so so much. Everytime I look at my tummy, I'll hope I'm pregnant, NOT FAT. No, not really want to be pregnant but its better to be pregnant than fat right? Pregnant ppl or those who have given birth have a right to eat a lot and be FAT!

Talking bout fat, im hungry now at 12.17. I just finished a big pack of choc at 10.30. Cool bo my tummy!

3. I have been very hardworking at school.

SEE MY BIG DARK EYEBAGS & CIRCLES! I have only the right of being late for 3 mins for the rest of the 2 weeks of this stopover if not i'll get another warning letter :( Have been so far so good. The first 3 weeks of school is terrible, I cant get used to waking up so early every morning and have used up ALL of my 22.5hrs of leave and 5 or 6 MCs! BUTBUTBUT I'm glad to say that i've improved so much. Am always early am waking up myself, and going to school DAILY. Big acheivement already!

SO anyway, BIGBIGTHANKS to those who have helped me on my personal selling! I'm glad to say that I've done well, but its all thanks to YOUYOUYOU! Now all I can hope for is to do my report well!

2010-11-27T23:54:00.002+08:00

Look at my fat ass face. And I bought new blue contact lenses!

Anyway, preorder for Jingle Jolly Joy is ending tomorrow! (29/11/10)
LAST ORDER!

www.xuan-personalselling.blogspot.com!

2010-10-27T18:20:00.001+08:00

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE VISIT MY PERSONAL SELLING PAGE!

I spent 3 days on this ok! Hard work!

http://xuan-personalselling.blogspot.com/

http://xuan-personalselling.blogspot.com/

2010-10-27T12:38:00.002+08:00

Hello!

Babies are so cute!

Jesse's so smart. He's the happiest baby I've ever seen, thanks to love from his mama. Adorable max.

I wna have a baby too! Yes, not in another 5 years.

School is boring, sigh.

Really wish that this 1 1/2 years pass super quickly. Sibei sian of waking up early to study. Worse, do nothing at all in office. TSK Anyway I am the top performer since school started! :D Really pray that my enthu wont wear off so quickly, It was great to hear this, although I am sure I am not as dilligent as my friends. Everyone is calling now, only me :(

Thanks to those who have ordered from me for my personal selling.

For YOU who dont know what im talking about, you should visit www.xuan-personalselling.blogspot.com or my facebook account. Just search "Keziah Loue".

Kthanksbye

2010-10-24T23:06:00.002+08:00

Yay B brought me to halloween horror!

Other photos are w b.

It was fun seeing other people freak out when the monsters tried to scare them. Swear b had d more fun laughing at people then anything else.

BUT the queue was crazy. Too many people. *shakes head*

Took some photos with the 'ghosts'. They keep scaring the girls who appear to be already super freaked out. Super funny.

Went for the haunted village.

Waited for around 1 hour for the less than 5 min walk. Wasnt really scary but there were more 'ghosts' than any other haunted house I went. Not really enjoying cos it was small and rushing.

Then we went on the tram of terror.
(with 2 random people sitting beside us. ps the guy dressed up as a crazy scientist, i think)

Tram went on the usual route, with a 'ghost' as a guide, and extra scares. There was one point where the 'ghost' jumped out and the people sitting infront of us screamed damn loudly, so loud that the cows all looked over with the 'wtf face'. Super epic. B was laughing throughout the whole ride, damn cute.

Then went for the show. Was similiar to the normal shows but with extra ghostly appearance. The host was great! Making racist jokes about her own race. Super hilarous.

Dont think I want to go again next year. Dont think i can expect anything better. Tsktsk but i had a wonderful time @ night safari with b. Thanks ;)

2010-10-16T16:21:00.005+08:00

Halloween horror!

I've never really celebrated halloween before.

But i know....

We get to dress up and have fun!

Am begging to go to the Night Safari's Halloween Horror event this year.

LOOK @ THEIR ADVERTS!

There's a english version of the bat video but the hokkien one is GREAT!

SO TEMPTED TO GO.

I am so bored at home so i decided I should make up for halloween!

Tsk No blood. Dead since gravity was discovered. HAA!

HAAA I swear my grandma got the shock of her life when she saw me. She was so scared she kept asking me to wash up. HAHAHHAH I CANT STOP LAUGHING!

ok happy halloween kthanksbye.

2010-10-13T00:18:00.002+08:00

Love my new slippers.

Cute right!

School's starting soon.

Dont know what to expect from TEP.

2010-10-06T01:50:00.007+08:00

Pichas!

Jesse's first birthday chalet.

Look at how much he have grown!

He can now stand on his own already, big boy.

So.adorable.

Oh did i talk about that dream I had?

Dreamt that i had a baby boy, was breastfeeding him a moment, then teaching him how to call papa in another. Was tempted and i wanted have a baby for a while, until my studies and financial status or easily said, reality, woke me up. Life is not suited to have a baby, yet. But i swear i wana have many many. They are so cute. *pray that they will be chubby so i can pinch their cheeks everyday*

Anyway, remember i went Sentosa with Ting & Long?

Well was raining since before we reached so we had breakfast then went to underwater world instead. Ting's first time, how sua gu. & to those who never seen shark's eggs, or even knew that shark lay eggs, fyl. I thought that it was supposed to be a common sense/basic knowledge. Like everyone knows that chicken lays eggs, right?

Wanted to bring coco to the beach but it was raining. Too bad for coco. She stayed in the car the whole way we were at underwater world. The mean people didnt allow pets >:(

& after underwaterworld we brought coco to the beach cos it finally stopped raining. We went to the beach solely for coco's swimming, damn nice right.

Coco's first time swimming, she kept swimming for the shore and the waves were like 2x her size. So whenever she hits a wave it's as if the wave ate her up. Cute max. & ting had to keep running up and down to catch coco, then put her into the water.

Well coco doesnt seem to like the water very much. Can you imagine miko's reaction?

Then coco kept running away, several times to some china men who looked like they just got to the beach from the construction site behind. Not being racist but why cant she run to some young and handsome ang-moh, like 10x better right? Then i will go get her hehe!

Anyway there's Ting and coco, & me.

Photographer of the day. Those awesome photos dont have me inside, cos i took them ahha.

Camera was damn good, i like.

BUT HEAVY AND BULKY.

but sibeh fun to use sia <3

You know this super big and ugly looking fish...

Took this photo and found some resemblences.

Then saw someone feeding the fishes.

Then we fed the sharks. $3 for 3 small pieces of fish and sotong.

And long was so clumsy and dropped the sotong into the water.

(Must always take pichax in the toilets, its an ah lian thingy =.=)

Then we were resting outside.

There were a lot of peacocks around and I fed this one. Wna guess what i fed it with hahah!

On the tram back to the car park.

& this was the camera i was talking about.
Big bulky black dsr= fun, high megapix, super clear photos.

Totally fell in love taking photos with this camera. Think i kinda got addicted to the 'clickclick' sound whenever i take a picture.

BLAABLAABLAA

Had a lot of mosquito bites and am scratching away like crazy. Recovering from flu but headache is still here fml x100.

B have been v nice lately and i am very appreciative and i am a very happy girl although my body sucks like fuck and i am growing way too fat and i need facial and i need the gym and i need massage.

IF POSSIBLE...
I wna like go batam/bintan for a night for seafood and massage with bb one day.

Head is pounding fml.
Need hugs and kisses kthanksbyeeee.

2010-09-30T01:57:00.002+08:00

My life is so monotonous I have nothing interesting to blog about.

But i'm glad for this mono life I have now. At least its spent with the people I love everyday. Its way better than at that period when I go to random clubs hoping I get drunk enough to sleep well at night. Aimlessly walking around, calling every friend I can find to go out with me, this is not the life i want.

I'm very happy that I wake up in the morning becos of a call, from the same person, everyday & when I sleep, I sleep with the wishes of that same person that I have a good night and sweet dreams.

I hope that soon, I will wake up everyday with that same person kicking my ass, and sleep in the arms of his.

My life is revolving around him and I love it.

BUT I HAVE MY FRIENDS & FAMILY WITH ME!

Meeting yeeting tmr to sentosa like finally. Never liked suntanning after I became fair-er. Used to look like a malay, oh my passport photo looks malay... She's always true. No matter how wrong I am, or how irritated I am with her, we always stick together. She's there for me, and i will be there for her.

Couz gathering on saturday. Well only with 2 cousins and my sissy heeehee.

Watched Chen Zhen. The guy who acted as ipman is acting as Chen Zhen now. Good show. Partially cos I was having icecream half the show and snuggling with bbb the other half cos we are so 'fold'.

Heeeehh dear and I recently like adding the letter 'F' infront of an adjective. Like Fhungry, Fcold, Ftired. And we pronounce it so it becomes fungry, fold, & fired. The 'F' means 'fcking'. So instead of "I'm fking hungry", its " I'm Fungry"

Got a feeling I'm falling sick soon. My throat and my head are killing me oh & my cramps! Have been having very fked up cramps since P5 and am still complaining about it now. Well its good in a way cos it sort of warns me of it coming cos it will start hurting around 1 week before it comes. Everyday until the 2nd or 3rd day of my menses. Like alarm clock ah.

Jesse is 1! That is super fast. Rmb then when we were in CHEC being crazy asses, then prawning and shopping, then visiting Pelyn at the hospital for the birth of Jesse, batam, until now. Well time flies so quickly, really. Thank God we're still friends after everything.

I should be sleeping case I cant wake up tmr and yeeting gets into a fit and she comes up to my hse and kills me.

Oh anyway,YOUR NEW ROOM IS SO FKING CHIO (& clean)! Love ya. xoxo. Eh see ya night.

2010-09-24T02:29:00.002+08:00

MEGA LOVE this song.

I feel more in love than how the lyrics describe.

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
while you are far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Well, every moment spent with you
Is a moment I treasure

I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, babe
And I don't wanna miss a thing

Lying close to you
Feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever

I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time

2010-09-24T01:58:00.002+08:00

I got the shock of my life! Carnt beliieve iie typpe lykke thiish lasth tiimes? WTF AHLIAN MAX & all the 'gans 184' were so disgusting.

& I realized that 99% of my posts are emo posts. Like he broke my heart into a million pieces, i will wait until EU find a new STEAD then i'll START to search for my OTHER HALF, like he got flings with his 'gan sister' and i was so jealous and upset over it. FML PLEASE.

& my photos were so... I dont know how to describe something more than disgusting. (Ting&Long's were awesomely disgusting too)

WTF Seriously i'm super turn off now, at myself. More turn off when i thought of sk when ting called me and she told me she found sk's fb 2 days ago. Swear she was like 'omgomgomg' all the way haha!

ANYWAY i saw ting's and long's name a lot of times in my previous posts. Super funny when i 'talked bad' about them whenever i was mad at them.

I rrly think i am mad, sometimes, literally.

Well, im glad i type and think better now. Deleting the blog away so that no one will ever pass by it and laugh at me for the rest of their lives. I am very careful of what i say now.

Got to wake up in the MORNING its 2am now and i got to go kthanksbye.

2010-09-21T03:29:00.002+08:00

Bffs came over to chill.

Then ting fell asleep :(

Played with make up with jinlong while ting was sleeping. Wanted to make up for ting too but she's a very light sleeper.... Swear jinlong looked like a sunburnt peacock- red cheeks and peacock feathers inspired eyes. Well, we did make up for each other and will ask ting to judge who did better and the loser will have to pay for mcbreakfast .Will upload the photos to fb soon hee!

&&& Camwhore!

I swear the last time I wore those headpiece was..... p6? Gawd...

But when I wear these and watch movie, I could hear nothing but noise of the movie & it was pretty cool. Well was supposed to be a gaming headpiece btw and it was quite expensive?

God loves us all.
& I love you boyfriend.

2010-09-19T19:56:00.004+08:00

I am the happiest girl with the best parents and the most loving boyfriend and the most supportive bffs. I am so blessed im dancing around the house now and smiling so widely to myself.

I promise I'll cherish.

Thank God.

2010-09-16T18:03:00.003+08:00

Added a Cbox at the side, so the bitches could bitch. Or when i need advices or comments or whatsoever, you people can help.

Like: Where to eat nice food at night? like 10 plus onwards.

&&& I am planning to sell stuffs here. Like apparels and other good shit. So do support. OR if you want me to sell YOUR stuffs here, mail me. Link at the side.

2010-09-15T21:04:00.002+08:00

CAMWHORE

YAY YAY YAY

Headache and boredom seems to ALWAYS come together...

I wna go shopping so bad.

Best is go into one shop and buy everything i want den i can go home alr.

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO
I AM BORED AND EMO AND WHATEVER.

Playing millionaire city and its fun.

2010-09-12T16:06:00.002+08:00

Me love hotdogs ftw.

Need more mahjong legs.
Everytime Ting & me wna play we dont find enough legs zzzz.

Anyways, the baby hamy died :(

Cant even find the body, it just disappeared, sigh.

Time now: 1.10am

I just got home with a packet of CHONGPANGNASILEMAK!

Sinful yo! Me growing more and more sideways :(

I *munching on yummy chix wing*, will start my diet *munchhh*, tomorrow.

and that tomorrow never comes :)

Exams over! YAY HI HOLIDAYS.

I know im like 1 week over the 'hi holiday' period but hey im busy ok.

Wna go shopping and buy more tops soon.

Am tired of wearing t-shirts everyday.

Like no matter where i go, im in tees and shorts, yawns.

Have to learn to dress up more often.

Comments if you know where i can find good food at night.

2010-09-01T18:44:00.001+08:00

Woohooo! So happy! Hammies gave birth! There were 3 but 2 died. BUT ANYWAY there's this little red thingy that is squirming around in the cage now! Muahahhahha so excited yo! PLEASE BABY HAMMY DONT DIE :( WOOHOOOOOOOOO!!!

2010-09-01T07:28:00.002+08:00

I'm still always going to be here. Still gna be here for you if you ever ever need someone to talk to, someone to share your problems with. Although I may not be able solve any of your problems, I will be here to listen to you.

Whenever. I've never changed and I never will.

You can't ever imagine how I spent my recent few days. I was never alone. I cannot be alone. You will never know how much I was thinking about the whole
issue.

Listening to other people's problems, I felt that I was lucky, at least I wasnt married. But as I hear how other people couldn't bear to let their partners go, I was really touched.

Exams soon, then holidays. Wild wild wet, Malaysia, and work. Should totally think of ways to earn money.

I want a loving and loving husband, my own family, my own kids, my own biz, my own life.

2010-08-30T19:06:00.002+08:00

2010-08-30T17:07:00.002+08:00

Is this a sweet dream, or a beautiful nightmare?

Really funny dream, that I could see my 'dead' grandparents (who are alive now) and they were blessing me. First my granddad told me that everything will be fine and that this guy will become my husband. My grandma said the same thing. I recognize who this guy is. I once wanted him to be mine so much. And there's these dogs at my granddad's hse who were ao big and scary and were following me. Then suddenly I dreamt of chasing after some girl friend of mine who stole my other friend's phone and I tallked her into returning the phone.

Sometimes I'm happy for having so many dreams but it's getting tiring dreaming about some guy every night. I know how to move on and be happy, but I can't if these dreams keep haunting me. Once sweet dreams have became nightmares.

Ohwell supposed to be studying but really cannot find the mood to. God beautify my life. Hungry and am lazy to get out of bed. Time check: 5.20 zzz

2010-08-29T16:30:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry. Cos if you think I've changed, you made me this way. If u think I was very mean, it's nothing to what you've said or done. You think you've did nothing wrong. Yes you didn't. I was that fool who made us this way. Well I've learnt my lessons :) and I was thinking, if you don't have got a heart nor do u give a damn about me, why should I still be so paranoid and concerned over you. I don't need to care if your healthy or not, if ur back is giving u probs, if u have eaten. And to not care, I've to be mean.

Well at least I didn't reply a 'fuck you' to everything you say. I'm not gna be ur beck and call no more.

2010-08-27T20:51:00.002+08:00

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever Where
every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you baby and I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you the sweetest dream would never do
I'd still miss you baby and I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
I just wanna stay with you in this moment forever, forever and ever

Although this is a very sweet feeling i frequently miss,

I know that I'm so over it.

Good shits dont happen on me.

Well, im living well now.

Wake up, study, work, chill, sleep.

No love, but freedom.

I am beginning to believe that I can still smile,

smile like i never thought i could without that someone.

2010-08-23T20:30:00.002+08:00

I only gave myself one day to be sad and cry.

& thankfully with all the awesome people who were with me all the way

since after work till 10 plus in the morning.

So glad I still have people who care.

Have to start finding my motivation to study!

&&& have to find someway i can earn money online.

Am thinking of going into blogshop biz again.

Anyone have any good offers?

Mail me pls: keziah@live.com.sg

2010-08-21T19:05:00.003+08:00

If you gave me a choice to go all the way back to a year ago,

I will still choose to do the same thing.

Pictures long overdued.

See told you guys im not chubby neither am i fat.

I'm pregnant & it's Jassy's!

OPPS!

If i act like i'm really ok, will i be really ok?

Love is so sweet, yet so bitter.

Working a lot nowadays.

No motivation to stay at home and study at all.

Just cant stand being alone eh.

Enjoyed clubbing for a start, with my awesome bffs.

Am gna do all the things I never tried to do.

I like got no life eh. Sianzzz.

2010-08-16T22:32:00.002+08:00

Its ok if I dont think about it. But when I do, I feel like shit. Like I knew this was gna happen, but I willingly played with fire, praying that I don't get hurt. But we all know, we'll always get burnt. I keep hoping that when my phone rings, it's you.

2010-08-16T18:09:00.002+08:00

I feel so fucked up.

Have to go out and play and chill and forget.

I already wasted enough time.

Working at Admiral Bar @ the S'pore Flyer.

Enjoyed several awesome views of fireworks.

NDP, YOG opening, and their rehearsals.

Cool bo!

I need to move on.

You dont need me already.

2010-08-11T14:12:00.002+08:00

Red, White, WOW!

Happy national day people!

Had a clear and awesome view of fireworks from the flyer.

I like the cresent and the 5 stars one best!

Look at what i found in the office.

The first time i saw such a big lighter was thru Pam's fb.

First time rl yo.

Working definately takes up a lot of time with my loves.

But it also helped me save a lot of mahhnehh.

(& helped me gain more weight too.)

I keep eating and eating and eating....

Havent really sat down and enjoy the food but still.

Never stopped munching yo.

Will I be as fat as when I used to work there?
NO PLEASEEEE :(

Hate it when I eat too much and my tummy cannot take it.

It's like my mouth and tummy having a war.

Mouth itchy must eat food but tummy too full for food.

Wna go shopping & USS so bad.

2010-08-03T13:23:00.002+08:00

Life is so amazing;

How people who were once strangers meant so much to you now.
How he could light up your life just by a smile or tickle.
How he could influence you to change and grow up.
How the stranger-friend-lover became a stranger again.
How that stranger could ruin your day when all was well and happy so easily.
How that stranger could change your life so much.
How you could hate yourself for falling for someone who's worth nothing for.
How dumb you could be for knowing that he isnt the one but still love him so deep.

But in life, all moves on. Nothing waits for you, time still ticks. Noone will wait for you to grow up, noone will be patient with you, noone will prove your fears wrong, noone will keep their promises.

Dont this just suck?

How many of us knows that our love is true? How many of us knows that after giving in so much, we will get true love or maybe just appreciation in return? How many of us can say so loudly and boldly that their other half is all they ever need and they would willingly spend their entire life with.

No point crying, no point getting emotional over people who has the 'do you think i care' attitude. Friends, lovers, whatsoever. Their love isnt true. Thats why they fail, thats why they are never patient, thats why they dont protect, thats why they are never there when you need them, thats why they could leave you so easily, thats why they dont give a fucking damn.

But deep down in me, I still believe that true love exists. I will never know who that is if i keep holding on to the hope that I could change an individual.

No matter how much effort, there will always be other stuffs more important than you. They change easily becos of the other factors, but you? They know they could get another one easily.

I thought that everyone has a good and true heart. I thought that I felt love and I believed in it. I thought that someone who 'loves' you will change anything they can, but I was proven wrong.

Well, an experience in life. I wont regret anything, life has no U-turns. Life, moves on.

Super irritated today. School claimed that I didnt attend ICA4 for ICT. I was sure I went and this sucks. If that fucked up teacher who very well noticed me cos i was sitting infront and we talked, insists that I wasnt there, I have to (or may not be able to) go for the make up paper. I DONT WANT TO GO THROUGH ACCESS AND EXCEL AGAIN! :(

School sucks. Let me grow up quick and earn lots of money.

fringe problem!

2010-07-27T00:06:00.002+08:00

FRINGE TROUBLE!

My bangs are too long now...

Should I leave it to the side and go back to my previous kinda fringe...
Or just manually cut it shorter to keep the bangs?
HOWHOWHOW? :(
Give me suggestions in twitter plox :)

Anyways, I'm starting work this saturday!
Woohoo! I hope that it'll be like super busy always,
so that I can skip meals and slim down!

I am very happy these few days.
Happy and satisfied.

IS THIS THE LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL UH?? :)
I think sooooo! YAAAAYAYYYYY!
Not expecting anymore overseas trips this year though....
Major sadness.
BUT THE UNEXPECTED ALWAYS HAPPEN HEE!

ANYWAYS,
if you are a hater/hypocrite/person who thinks the hell world of yourself,
kindly fuck off :) Ciao!

2010-07-22T15:46:00.002+08:00

The photo we took just now for our Jap roleplay.

Trust.

Very important for relationships to work.

Kinship, bgr, friendship etc.

Do you have it?

You had a bad experience.

People hurt you and you hurt others too.

Thus you built up a wall of defense to protect yourself.

To defend youself from other ppl, from me.

You dont give in anything, you dont love, you dont trust.

You are sad and pathetic.

Its happy to love and be loved.

I got that before and im satisfied.

But im sad at how much I gave and how much I got in return.

Wna go swim but the weather is so cold

and it looks like its gna rain again.

Sad life siol.

My fats and appetite scared me.

SOSOSOSOSO BOOOORED!

2010-07-22T08:35:00.003+08:00

こにちわ　わたしはxuanです

おげんきですか

わたしはあいしてる！

"Hi, I am xuan.

How are you, I love you!"

In school now.

Japanese roleplay later.

HOW TO REMEMBER THE SCRIPT MAN! :(

Woke up in the morning feeling so good.

Was raining and it was so cooling.
One bad thing was that I had to wake up for school at 8am.

Dad is right, I should take up a night job in the future.

Then I wont need to wake up so early.

Class is too cold, jacket is not enough.
I needa winter clothes! LOL!

Tmr is Sunshine's birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY CF in adv!

Dinner at barbar then zouk.

Dont like clubbing but since its a once a year thingy I shall go.

Gna freeze in class alr kthxbye!

2010-07-21T03:23:00.002+08:00

It's 3.30 now and i can't sleep despite having tried since 1.
Have 8am class tmr plus efma ica at 3pm and I bet I'm gna have a hard time waking up fml x100. That's why I need sleeping pills man!

The weather is good and i should be able to sleep damn quickly la. Need to exercise more to make myself tired and maybe work out and tone up a little. K swimming tmr?

Shoulda I work at the new admiral bar? Damn far, low pay but awesome boss& manager. How how how? I need moeny sia. It sucks being broke. Fml x100000000.

I better get my dipolma cert and get a good and high paying job in the future man. I don't want to wait for other people to support me. I can buy and do anything i want! I want to get a new cam and travel the world and take many many pictures. Maybe lipo my fats at the tummy an thighs area and put them in my breasts. I wna have a freaking hot figure.

Things to do before my birthday 28/08.
1. Save up.
2. Get license.
3. Slim down by 3kg.
4. Work out.
5. Pass every paper.

Anyways went shopping and watched despicable me with love and totally enjoyed my day! Love bought me a pink and chio tongue stud but I'm not using it now cos it's long and the balls are too big it feels uncomfortable. This sounds wrong, think straight yo. The pink paint keep peeling off when I play with it. I'm afraid of poisoning ley. Bought shorts and lots of
food. Love bought some sexy Gs and I got a pink nightie.

Want to go out with girlfriends more!

I wish I could go everywhere and do everything with you dear and I wish u all the best in everything you do. I'm here even when the sky falls down on you. ily.

I think I lost her for good :(

high

2010-07-19T01:45:00.004+08:00

This was 2 saturdays back at Le Bar with my friends. Dressed up, took a lot of photos and had a hell loads of fun! Enjoyed!

Giving myself space to grow up.

Despicable me tmr with yt hopefully! Heard it was super adorable and i want to catch it!

Test tmr nights world!

2010-07-15T10:26:00.002+08:00

Damn, cant upload photos don't know why :(

Anyway am in class now. Super long never blog in class.
Hi Jas, Daph, Mel, Yinting!

Weekends soon pls, so I can go party/chill out.

GOOD NEWS!
Admiral Bar is reopening!
Don't think it will still be called Adm Bar though...
CANT WAIT! Wana go back and work!
I talked to Victor liao.
If next time aft grad I cant find job, he will hire me as manager! Kidding...
I just wana spend time with them anyway.
They are very encouraging & motivating.
They understand me and they are very protective.
Its always nice to talk to victor.

I wanna graduate soon.
Like i've lost all motivation for school liao.
Attendance sucks, understanding sucks.
Finance and EFMA are like aliens to me sian.

But the best thing about school is friends <3

2010-07-14T02:05:00.003+08:00

When you believe- Mariah Carey

Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood

Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we knew we could

In this time of fear
When prayers so often prove(s) in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away

Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles, when you believe
Though hope is frail, it's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles you can achieve
When you believe, somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't (always happen) when you ask (Oh)
And it's easy to give in to your fears (Oh...Ohhhh)
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see your way straight throught the rain
(A small but )still resilient voice
Says (hope is very near)

I like this song.

"And I say unto you: Ask, and it shall be given you; Seek, and ye shall find; Knock, and it shall be opened unto you"

Be careful what you wish for cos you just might get it.

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preserves."

I am not telling/ reminding anyone else but me.
Maybe Im not a good enough friend/ girlfriend thats why my rs with people who are important to me are so fucked up now.

Going to sleep soon bye world.

Atlantis

2010-07-10T15:53:00.004+08:00

Had so much of fun drinking/dancing with my gfs!

ATLANTIS is new love. Girls are more sexy than other places.

Think we wear until too hot la, got someone think we are hostess from behind.

Noob still explained he was drunk when its only 9?

I DONT WANA LOOK LIKE CHEENA/THAI :(

Lessons learnt

2010-07-09T13:18:00.003+08:00

Lessons learnt with piercings.

If I pierce my______, it would be me reminding _____...

Eyebrow; to open my eyes bigger and dont look at things so naively, that things are never as simple as you think they are, that people are not as real as they claim they are.

Ear; to remember that not everything I heard is true. That I have to be smarter when I chose the things to believe.

Lips; that kisses that felt so loving are not so loving about all, that some people kiss and tell.

Tongue; that lies are what hurt r/s, that I should never do it to people that mean a whole lot to me.

Surface piercing at my left chest; that I have to treat everyone with sincerity, that I cannot condemn every guy just becos of some set backs.

Never explain. Your friends dont need it & your enemies wont believe it
anyway.

Saw this: Women's compact instruction book.

Never do housework, no man ever made love to a woman because the house was spotless.
Remember you are known by the idiot you accompany.
Don't imagine you can change a man-unless he's in diapers.
What do you do if your bf walks out? You shut the door.
So many men- so many reasons not to sleep with any of them.
If they can put a man on the moon- they should be able to put them all there.T
Tell him you are not his type, you have a pulse.
Never let your man's mind wander-its too little to be let out alone.
Go for younger man, they never mature anyway.
Never marry a man for money. You'll have to earn every penny.
Defination of a bachelor: A man who has missed the opportunity to make some woman miserable.
The best way to get a man to do sth is to suggest he is too old for it.
If he asks you what books you're interested in, tell him checkbooks.
A man's idea of serious commitment is usually, "Oh alright, I'll stay the night."
Rmb a sense of humor does not mean that you tell him jokes, it means you laugh at his.
If he asks you if you're faking it tell him no, you're just practicing.
When he asks you if he's your first tell him, "You may be, you look familiar."

Going out later, but it's only 2 now.
I'm happy I'm happy I'm happy.
I'm happy that although I lost my love,
I gained knowledge & wisdom, the truth, and friends!
I gained a life.

I understood love.

2010-07-08T22:55:00.004+08:00

New blogskin, new life!

I'm glad I that I'm ready to move on,
aft wasting so much of my precious youth.
I'm happy I could start with a better life.

So many things happening now, making me feel like a fool.
Everything is stressing me out.
I'm really considering going overseas for half a year to study.
But I have no courage being in a foreign country, alone, for so long.

Like my new blogskin?

I am having fun EVERYDAY.
With no stress, and I can be myself.
I can laugh, I can be happy, I can cry, I can do whatever I want.
I enjoy my life now.

heartless

2010-07-07T14:25:00.003+08:00

What bout gg away overseas for a sem...

Heart pain heart sour who cares zzz

How could you forget the times we had?

So called love

2010-07-07T00:07:00.003+08:00

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘

I think I'm gna get my XXX pierced later :/ really wanted it last night but now when I wake up, I scared pain lol. Should I get drunkhigh early in the morn?

Need sleeping pills to help me sleep. My isomnia is killing me and my attendance.

Felt like 3 weeks have passed since you're gone. How are you?

2010-07-06T14:46:00.000+08:00

Fucking cheater _|_

Emo post

2010-07-06T01:40:00.004+08:00

No point in changing.

School's screwed up thanks to my laziness.

Love's screwed up.

Family's screwed up thanks to school.

I'm screwed up cos I loved someone who doesn't love me back.

What for trying so hard? What do I get back in return?

First step for my new life, be a bitch to those who I think will leave my life.

I am so gna get that piercing during holidays. Pain for 1 week but chio lei.

So gna be a better drinker so I don't sprout nonsense and squat infront of the toilet bowl when I'm drunk.

So not gna put my heart into and rs or friendship that's new. Once bitten twice shy, heck care go for it another time, shit, got bitten again and again. Shld rrly learn to give up.

So gna go on a mad diet and get fab body with boobies still attached. Everytime I diet and become skinnier my boobs will disappear :(

So gna grow up and learn that trusting others will benefit nothin on me but painful lessons.

So gna be the bitch everyone hates.

It's better being unloved and happy than loved and emo.

Love made me a fool, yet again.

2010-07-04T22:08:00.002+08:00

The higher you pin your hopes, the harder you fall.

Went Yishun just now and saw someone I havent seen since CNY. OMG miss the whole group so super much. Cant wait to see all of them!

Updates:
- Booked tp like finally.
- Single again fml again.
- Biz law presentation and finance project deadline on tuesday.
- Home internet connection sucks so much. Fuck internet fuck lap top fml x100.
- After so long, I havent uploaded Batam photos.

It sucks, I gave my everything, I pinned hopes, I saw our future during that 4 days but I got nothing back. Trust, no? Understanding, no? Love? Fuck no way.

Photos from Batam

2010-06-29T22:57:00.002+08:00

Photos are up gogogo!

I feel god damn irritated.

Hate today.

Holiday ends

2010-06-28T00:50:00.000+08:00

School starts in less than 9 hours. I am totally dreading school. It's like I haven't enjoyed enough lei. Connection at home sucks :( wna upload my batam photos but... :(

New relationship with the same guy. Started afresh and this time I'm giving in my all again. Hopefully we will work out fine till the end.

Could tell that he had been trying very hard to be a better bf and I'm really touched. I promise to love you and be the best gf you had ever had.

I am still learning to be your bestest gf, yr best friend and soulmate. Let's work hard together.

Anyways...

Taken this in the hotel when I'm bored. Took this with my iPhone so I can upload. The others I took with my camera all cannot, sian.

Right anyway school starts tmr it sucks k thnx bye.

- Return for more awesome-ness!

2010-06-23T23:00:00.001+08:00

I shouldn't have lied. I am open and clear on what I did. I shouldn't have lied coz I had nothing to hide.

But I did... Becos of the lie I'm judged and insulted and i wished I never did. I should be open I shouldn't hide.

By lying I protrayed myself as trying to save myself cos I did wrong and cheap stuffs behind ya back. But that was not the case. No wonder all the insults.

I should've believed that you would understand but I didn't believe in myself much.

Ok this post is getting very vocabulary ltd. Suddenly thought of it and wanted to post this so I can read it when I reflect back on my life.

I'm not all righteous and by trying to cover my insecurity with lies only made it worse.

It's not too late to change, never too late. Change is for me myself, not him not anyone else. Even if it is impossible for us, I will still benefit.

Well at least I learnt.

- Return for more awesome-ness!

- Return for more awesome-ness!

BATAM

2010-06-22T21:52:00.002+08:00

Escape to Harris Resort for 2 days.

It looks super pretty from the photos,

hopefully it's as pretty in real life.

A trip with 2 of my best friends & my mummy.

Glad I could have a time out.

Had always wanted to go on vacation with my dears.

Even since before holidays I was hoping for a trip already.

I'm so gonna keep my own passport aft this trip.

So i can like go overseas with my friends as and when I like.

Ok thanks bye miss me muacks.

Bye love I'm moving on.

2010-06-21T03:17:00.005+08:00

I don't need someone who is so matured to stop my immaturity.
What i need is someone who can ride on my immaturity and maturely understands me.

I wanted to love you long, love you good,

I wanted to marry you and have your kids,

but you didnt believe in me.

You didnt love me enough.

I'm smiling cos I know I have true friends who believes in me.
They spend enough time with me to know how I am like.

They trusted in my character and were angry for me.

Even those who spent like super little time with me believed in me.

I wont doubt myself anymore.
I know myself 99999999999999999X more than anyone of you.

I make mistakes but my heart is true.
Thanks for telling me that I'm great, that I'm not a cheap slut.

Calm down baby and think, if all this is really worth it.

& if you are still you, the one whom I knew last year feb,

you will believe in me and realize that you are so goddamn important to me,

that you are the only one that I will ever love so fucking much,

that NOONE will ever be a threaten to you.

& when you think back of the things I did for/with you,

you will believe and know that I'm true and sincere.

& maybe that day you will miss me.

But baby, I would already be gone.

Isnt it sad that i gave everything in return of this shit.

我怎能不遗憾就丢失爱
In love, we gain.
& then, we lose everything, hands up.

I'll miss you but this will be the last post about you.

I have to move on.

2010-06-19T23:14:00.000+08:00

I am relecting on what gone wrong. I know it now, I've thought in your shoes. I don't blame u, I'm not even angry. Disappointed at myself...

Hopefully, I'll be the best gf/friend to whoever, soon.

You're right, I should leave

- Return for more awesome-ness!

Blogpress

2010-06-19T04:45:00.001+08:00

Blogging with blogpress! Pam introduced me this. If this is good than...yay! And see this :" - Return for more awesome-ness!" at the bottom? This will appear whenever I'm using iPhone to blog! Ok cool I'm tired nights!

Updates/ current thoughts.
1. Will not drink so much alr.
2. Bejeweled blitz on fb is hard :(
3. Yeoyeeting came over to teach me to play maple!
4. 1 day BATAM trip with mum Pelyn Jesse and yyt!
5. Am so not returning MY passport after this trip.
6. I can go overseas with friends already!!
7. Sis bought me pink ear piece and pink Victoria secrets boxers!

K bye and nights.

- Return for more awesome-ness!

Angry

2010-06-18T15:40:00.002+08:00

I tried and I failed.

Stop insulting me and thinking the world of yourself.

Both of you claimed to love me, to be my friend.

In the end? Its all talk no shit.

I'm just angry at the people I chose to cherish, to love,

those I thought will be with me forever.

I'm so childish to think that there will be forever.

Dont try me, I am childish.

If you want to step into my life,

make it happy, & never leave.

Now, just....

Questioned.

2010-06-17T17:30:00.002+08:00

" Do I deserve you treating me so nice?"

What about...

I love you & you love me & you wna treat me nice?

The time we spent tgt, the happiess we had...

The times where we laughed our asses off...

But, is LOVE a simple enough answer?

What were you thinking when you wanted me back then?

Am I not doing my part when we were tgt?

Did I not try to change for you?

Was I still too childish?

Did I not try to be understanding?

OHHH whatever...

move on

2010-06-17T16:31:00.002+08:00

I should move on. Fate controls everything.

Drinking, is it becos im happy, or sad?

Does it mean that I'm surrounded with loud music and friends and drinks, I will be happy?

Does it mean I've forgotten bout u? Maybeee...

SUPER FML TODAY :(

Just wasted 80 bucks grrrrrrr...

More craze cos....

2010-06-10T01:47:00.010+08:00

CRAZYPICTURES!!!!!

I am damn bored,

Ok this is me, when I'm normal in school

Fringe messy cos I hate it when it comes to my face so I...

Usually push everything up.

Wierd people I see in school.

An EMO. Fringe covering >1/2 of the face.

Act Emo fail,

obviously looks more like a mental patient.

Girls who like to clip their fringe so high,

and hopefully appear to have a slimmer and longer face.

Good for short people.

(I'm not short I dont need this.

I look like a rocker guy when I tie up the rest of my hair.)

& when i let it down & mess it up, I look like lion king.

Chenas!

Pig tails yay!

Kampong kias!

Noob ass.

You will probably find one of these in your class.

(You know who I'm talking about *winks*)
(Damn I forgot to take one with wind blowing in my hair. Sad.)

Act chio act model type.

Old aunties who like to bun their hair all the way up.

Do I smile like kar hao here?

Think I look like a nun here.

Should have posted some more clear ones,
then ask you to guess who I'm trying to impersonate.

Laugh at this is you are bored, tired, stressed, whatever.

Took these photos cos I'm bored & I cant sleep.

Freaking stressed these few weeks,
ICAs, Projects, & FTT.
Thankfully, tmr last ICA(Japanese) & then Efma project deadline & FTT on friday.

Wish me luck pls!
I need all I have.

ps & You think I care if you laugh & insult me, meanies? No :)

PINK is my kinda sex!

2010-06-09T03:00:00.003+08:00

Yea I'm in my pink polo top again.

It is my favorite!

2 reasons.

Boyfriend bought this for me,

& it's pink!

Camwhored while waiting for bf to come fetch me.

Then I thought that act chio photos are boring...

& I..

TADAA!

Prettiest picture of me! Period!

Anyway, Bf & his sis & I went to orchard to shop today.
Sis bought me a bag for school,

& Bf bought me one to bring for casual outings, & a wristlet.

Sis got me a levis bag that's pink at the bottom & bf thinks it looks really sweet.

It looks more 'student-ly' :)

Bf got me 2 coaches of the same design.

PINK also with lotsa heart shapes.

Enough of bragging... But I'm really happy & THANKS MUCH MUCH!

Anyways,

It's like Daphne's birthday today & Im getting presents!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAPHY!

LOVE YOU <33 :D

Update

2010-06-07T06:15:00.002+08:00

& yes, I finally updated my blog.

New blogskin.
First blogskin ever that I did that was dark.

Previous skins were all white & bright.

Well, more pictures!

I'm having the exam period now.
&&& FTT SOON!, 11th June!

Excited for ftt and not. Cos I havent started studying for it.

Everything I do now is like revise and projects.

(& a little time with lover and dgn)

OH, I took down the cbox to stop advertisements.

If I shouldnt, tell me & maybe I can find another chatbox?

Email up at my profile

so if you have any good chatboxes that wont get inested with advs,

email me.

I got to rest. Nights.

2010-05-31T03:06:00.003+08:00

Wanted to do a new blogskin but i'm too lazy :(
Wanted to remove my cbox but i'm too lazy :(
Wanted to walk to my bed to sleep but u'm too lazy :((

Major sadness.

Something happened.

Now that I'm home and there's school tmr, life sucks.

k bye.

2010-05-24T14:25:00.003+08:00

The toronto Board of Health has proposed that warning sighns be placed on all alcohol bottles to tip off drinkers about the possible peril of drinking a pint or two of any alcoholic beverage.

1. WARNING!: Consumption of alcohol may cause you to wake up with a breath that could knock a buzzard off a wreaking dead animal that is one hundred yards away.

2. WARNING!: Consuption of alcohol is a major factor in dancing like an idiot.

3. WARNING!: Consuption of alcohol may cause you to tell the same boring story over and over again until your friends want to assault you.

4. WARNING!: Consuption of alcohol may cause you to thay shings like thish.

5. WARNING!: Consuption of alcohol may cause you to tell the boss what you really thinks about him.

6. WARNING!: Consuption of alcohol is the leading cause of inexpliacable rug burn on the forehead.

2010-05-24T03:44:00.003+08:00

Hi friends!

Its ICA period now and I have been studying for the both icas so far. Caught the flu bug and am like Damn tired of coughing and sick of blowing my nose. My eyes are tearing, my head is aching, and my muscles are still cramp. You'll know why at the end of this post...

Worse, am having marketing ica tmr, and I forgot my dose of b&j choco fudge brownie today! Was studying too hard already :( finished copying 4 lectures of marketing and ate instant noodles and roti prata meanwhile. Studied once I woke up, like at 4? And I just finished my notes an hour ago.

As for my muscle cramps, Went for a 2.4km jog. Yes I heard you go 'wow?!' everyone knows I hate jogging, especially long distance kinda jogs. Tell me when did I not come in last for cross country/nafa in secondary school. Oh there was once. Sec4 jl and me took short cuts for our 2.4km run and did not come in last. We were caught though and had to go for a rerun. We didn't go and failed our nafa.

Here are my results for nafa since P4? Gold gold gold for primary school. And... Gold in sec1, silver in sec2, bronze in sec3, and I failed sec4. Awesome how it's like decreasing so nicely. And it's all because of the 2.4km run.

I usually have 5 or the least,4, for my other segments. My results are solely dependent on the run and you can tell, I hate running.

But decided to run on l... I believe Friday? with boyfriend. His ippt thingy was in a couple of weeks and he has to start training for his run. Haven't ran since sec4 nafa, and totally stopped exercising since I started working at admiral.

Wanted to encourage him so I offered to run with him, thinking he's an old man who haven't exercised in donkey years. Wrong move. In 150m I was outta breadth. Aft 300/400m, I totally walked all the way. Bf continued running and when he reached arnd 1.2k, he u-turned and came back to find me, strolling along. Then he suggested we ran bk to his hse and of cos, if not, it would be 3.4k around the loop to his plc?I definately would not have made it.

Tried to jog but legs were so jelly and ended up walking back, leaving bf jogging alone. And yes, he reached his plc way earlier than me and I took short cuts but it was still very tiring.

You know what happens the next day when I wake up...

And would u guys please stop spamming my cbox, before I totally remove it, grrrzzzz. One starts and all continues. It's like.. Monkey see monkey do.

Alright, enough for this post.
Tell me!
If you could ask me one question, what will it be?

2010-05-20T10:55:00.001+08:00

Cam-whore.

Class is boring, yawns.

2010-05-18T20:00:00.003+08:00

Havent had time to update my blog and nobody reads anyway. Cbox became an advertisement board.

Looking at people wearing their robes, taking photos with a stranger, wearing that hat, I'm so jealous. I want time to speed up to 2 years later so i can be wearing robes and everything and I can graduate and say byebye to school.

To one of my best friend in school, don't give up, don't you quit school. Find your motivation and meaning in life. You know you will lose out in the long run if you quit school now. 2 more years only, jiayou leis. Everyone in BF`09 cares about you, you are our class rep leis, cannot give up halfway hor. If not, the others and me will be disappointed. Neither one of us wants to see you leave school.

*** edit ***
Glad to say, just got a msg that my friend will be continuing school :)

2010-05-07T00:41:00.002+08:00

Lee's birthday chalet yesterday!

Both my hands are aching so badly. Over exercised my muscles yesterday starting the fire and bbq-ing for (not) everyone. Regretted wearing white shorts when they became black at the ass area. It was terribly warm yesterday night. There was no wind at all, and everyone's perspiring like ttm. Even aft showering, I still felt super dirty. Showered again before going to sleep.

Wanted to go WWW with Edm & Hui with b but I couldnt wake b up and ended up going back to sleep beside him. I tried waking him up a lot of times but you know, pigs are pigs.

Would really want to go out and have fun like I havent in years!

Presentation is on monday & I havent done my conclusion zzz.

2010-05-03T00:05:00.002+08:00

Early mothers' day celebration '10 at Chong Pang CC.

B's cam is awesome, it takes awesome pictures.

Happy mummy's day mum!

2010-04-26T10:25:00.003+08:00

Aliens may exist but contact would hurt humans:
Hawking

LONDON (AFP) - – Aliens may exist but
mankind should avoid contact with
them as the consequences could be
devastating, British scientist Stephen Hawking
warned Sunday.

"If aliens visit us, the outcome would be much as when Columbus landed in
America, which didn't turn out well for the Native Americans," said the
astrophysicist in a new television series, according to British media
reports.

The programmes depict an imagined universe featuring alien
life forms
in huge spaceships on the hunt for resources after draining
their
own planet
dry.

"Such advanced aliens would perhaps become
nomads,
looking to conquer
and colonise whatever planets they can
reach," warned
Hawking.

The doomsday scenario is suggested in the
series "Into the
Universe
with Stephen Hawking" on the Discovery
Channel, which began airing
in the United
States on Sunday.

On
the probability of alien life
existing, he says: "To my mathematical
brain, the numbers alone make
thinking about aliens perfectly
rational.

"The real challenge is to work
out what aliens might
actually be
like."

Glowing squid-like
creatures, herds of
herbivores that can hang onto a
cliff face and bright
yellow predators
that kill their prey with stinging tails
are among the
creatures that
stalk the scientist's fantastical cosmos.

Mankind has
already made a
number of attempts to contact
extraterrestrial
civilisations.

In
2008, American space agency NASA beamed the Beatles
song "Across the
Universe" into deep space to send a message of peace to any
alien that
happens
to be in the region of Polaris -- also known as the North
Star
-- in 2439.

But the history of humanity's efforts to contact aliens
stretches back
some years.

The US probes Pioneer 10 and 11 were
launched in 1972 and 1973 bearing
plaques of a naked man and woman and
symbols seeking to convey the positions of
the Earth and the
Sun.

Wtf? I swear, IF I ever come across an alien (if I can tell it is it), I will NOT , in my right mind, try to communicate with it. Unless it's cute like...

& Probably I would talk to them...

I am ALWAYS feeling bored, hungry and tired in EVERY class.

2010-04-21T01:58:00.002+08:00

RETURN ME THESE AWESOME PEOPLE!

Class is really really boring w/o them.
Noone, except jas, to cam-whore with.

& noone to go breaks & pool with me :(

2010-04-20T11:10:00.002+08:00

Why would I want some random asshole to care about me? Why should I give a fuck to other ppl?
I wanted it from you!

But it seems that you can never understand...

2010-04-19T23:41:00.002+08:00

Why have you thought of my fucking feelings. You were the first to come to my mind, yet. You'll always wanted me to think for you, have you thought for me? All was about you, your wants, your needs, your life?

And I don't see me in your future if we continue like this. We can both tell how much you treasure this r/s.

2010-04-19T01:36:00.003+08:00

I like this song-我爱他.

(my blog song)

Read the lyrics.

他的情况留在
某一节车厢
地下铁里的风
比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾
是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪
都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾
又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏都不肯醒来

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾
是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪
都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

At some period, you will find yourself liking some particular songs more.

It is because they sing how you're feeling then.

When I'm sad, I like sad songs.

I will always sing these when I'm unhappy. Like...
爱情傀儡-巫启贤
第一滴泪-动力火车
失恋无罪-黄丽玲
爱上你是一个错-杨培安

& those emo songs.

When I'm in love & happy, sad songs don't appeal anymore.

I don't even like listening to them a lot.

Songs, they tell a story.

They protray some sort of feelings.

They can encourage or push someone deeper into emo-ness.

One of the encouraging songs I like is 我相信-杨培安.

FUCK YOU, I do not only listen to old songs.

Just that I like the meaning of the lyrics.
I am not a 'sua deng kia'.

Don't understand? Sua ku. LOL.

Going to sleep now,

long day of fun (I hope) tmr.

Night world.

xoxo

如果还有遗憾
是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪
都停不下来
若那一刻重来我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

(Ps, this 'xoxo' shit is so gay. So is 'ciaos')

2010-04-18T17:23:00.002+08:00

Ok I'm a loser. Posted so many fucked up feelings I had just now. First I edited it, took out most the content. Then, I took it out from here completely.

So many things I want to tell you, but I dare not let you see.

Guess I should stfu, things will get better. Even not, I won't present myself like a stuck up bitch trying to patch things up when he never even bothered.

Still love you and your smile but...

I'll let go if it'll make you happier.

2010-04-14T01:46:00.001+08:00

Things you'll never hear a man say:
1) Here honey, you use the remote.
2) Ooh, Antonio Banderas AND Brad Pitt? That's one movie I gotta see!
3) While I'm up, can I get you anything? (well, maybe once ;-)
4) Aww, forget Monday Night football, let's watch Ally McBeal.
5) Hey, let me hold your purse while you try that on.
6) We never talk anymore.

Things you'll never hear a woman say:
1) What do you mean today's our anniversary?
2) Can we not talk to each other tonight? I'd rather just watch TV.
3) Ohh, this diamond is way too big! Don't you have something smaller?
4) Aww, don't stop for directions, I'm sure you'll be able to figure out how to get there.
5) I don't care if it's on sale, $300 is way too much for a designer dress.

2010-04-09T13:37:00.002+08:00

Am feelin down today, have a feeling like my world has stopped, and everything that I had are gone.
Must be the nightmares...
Talk to me.

FDA warnings!

The FDA is considering additional warnings on beer and alcohol bottles, such as:

13. WARNING: consumption of alcohol may make you think you are whispering when you are not.

12. WARNING: consumption of alcohol is a major factor in dancing like an asshole.

11. WARNING: consumption of alcohol may cause you to tell the same boring story over and over again until your friends want to SMASH YOUR HEAD IN.

10. WARNING: consumption of alcohol may cause you to thay shings like thish.

9. WARNING: consumption of alcohol may lead you to believe that ex-lovers are really dying for you to telephone them at 4 in the morning.

8. WARNING: consumption of alcohol may leave you wondering what the hell happened to your pants.

7. WARNING: consumption of alcohol may cause you to roll over in the morning and see something really scary (whose species and or name you can't remember).

6. WARNING: consumption of alcohol is the leading cause of inexplicable rug burns on the forehead.

5. WARNING: consumption of alcohol may create the illusion that you are tougher, handsomer and smarter than some really, really big guy named Chuck.

4. WARNING: consumption of alcohol may lead you to believe you are invisible.

3. WARNING: consumption of alcohol may lead you to think people are laughing WITH you.

2. WARNING: consumption of alcohol may cause an influx in the time-space continuum, hereby small (and sometimes large) gaps of time may seem to disappear.

1. WARNING: consumption of alcohol may actually CAUSE pregnancy.

2010-04-07T17:52:00.001+08:00

This makes me want to play Mario more!

2010-04-07T01:56:00.002+08:00

After so long...

I've updated!

Decorating the cake for baby's birthday.

Happybaby.

Went Ratchada.

& Guess what we've been doing on the way back =x

Holidays are ending soon.

BOO for not being able to stay over and spend more time with bf,

YAY for finally sth to do.

Hopefully, I'll find wonderful classmates like the 6 I had in BM0906 this coming year.

People like the guys who likes to play pool

& the girls who love to cam-whore,

just like me :D

Best if there's ppl to let me leech in projects and help me do my tutorials!

=x LOL!

This holiday is boring. Last year was much more fun!

28th Feb, so you know what date this was?

Need a pink Dslite, I want to play mario bros!

Yeeting got a new LV.

Buy me these and I'll be good I promise!

So much more to say but they're personal,

moving on to my private. Bye!

Miss me.

Happy birthday dear.

2010-03-30T14:55:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

Went out with YT & CF yesterday.
Prawned with CF.
She didn't want me to post her pictures on the net.
Her face was naked uh.

Caught a lot of prawns.
Imagine, we just sat down, placed the bait on the hook,
put it in the water, and in less than 1 minute, we got 5 prawns!

This is one of my most amazing prawning sessions.
Too bad b wasn't here.

Yeo.

I'm glad I brought my camera out!

2010-03-26T19:30:00.000+08:00

Adam And Eve

Funny Joke Posted on March 18, 2010

One day in the Garden of Eden…
Eve : Adam, do you really love me?
Adam: no, not really.
Eve : WHAT?! Then why did you make love to me??
Adam: HELLO?!? as if I had a choice!

From jokediary.com

2010-03-19T14:45:00.001+08:00

I WANT TO GO!

Tell me this don't look fun!

Yeeting's birthday coming next thurs,

& B's next next wed.

Howwwwwww?

2010-03-17T15:40:00.003+08:00

My blog is boring.

2010-03-14T22:58:00.002+08:00

Holidays so far is great, Ty. How bout u?

Although I didn't go clubbing or drinking like mad,
nor did I go fun places everyday like most of you thought I would,
best friends' holidays are ruined by attachments and so, i've no chance to craze with them,
but I can meet boyfriend almost everyday,
and it's a blessing to me, and hopefully he've enjoyed my company too.

IT fair is expectedly insanly crowded with those kiasu people who cannot resist crazy prices.
Boyfriend is a good example, he would never be able to resist such great offers.
Alright, to be fair, who can?

Lol, went to the NUM warehouse sale but was dissappointed at the lousy quality stuffs there.
Wanted to go to the body shop warehouse sale as well, but didn't have time.
Heard of yeeting's loots and was very jealous!

For the past few days, the Jack Neo's scandal have been appearing on almost every newspapers' front pages.
Didn't really went gaga over it, but it was impossible to not hear/see about it with the massive media coverage.

My view, the old man should be shot to death and the media should give his family some breathing space.
I love JN's movies but I despise what he did, well it's 2 different things right.
Which woman can stand her boyfriend, needless to say, husband, fucking every woman he can get his dirty hands on?
Let's not say sex, but isn't honesty and love important in every r/s?
If he loved her, he should protect her, and never even think of doing anything to hurt her.
He failed in both.
By letting his wive stand up for him in the media conference was not protecting her.

I shall stop here before my post becomes too lengthy.
Bye and enjoy your holidays/school/work, bye!

Ps. Baby, I'll never leave you, famous rich popular or not. You are gonna be mine forever! *big grins :D*

Interesting facts from internet

2010-03-11T00:13:00.002+08:00

Sperm is good for the skin
The proteins in sperm have a tightening effect on the skin. When sperm is left to dry, the evaporation of the water in it leaves behind protein which can help to reduce wrinkles. While this may be an excellent anti-aging treatment, the obvious downside is that you have to walk around with sperm on your face

99 Facts About Guys

1. Guys don't actually look after good-looking girls. They prefer neat and presentable girls.
2. Guys love flirts.
3. A guy can like you for a minute, and then forget you afterwards.
4. When a guy says he doesn't understand you, it simply means you're not thinking the way he is.
5. "Are you doing something?" or "Have you eaten already?" are the first usual questions a guy asks on the phone just to get out from stammering.
6. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
7. When a guy really likes you, he'll disregard all your bad characteristics.
8. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
9. Guys will do anything just to get the girl's attention.
10. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend.
11. When guys want to meet your parents. Let them.
12. Guys want to tell you many things but they can't. And they sure have one habit to gain courage and spirit to tell you many things and it is drinking!
13. Guys cry!!!!!!!!
14. Don't provoke the guy to heat up. Believe me. He will.
15. Guys can never dream and hope too much.
16. Guys usually try hard to get the girl who has dumped them, and this makes it harder for them to accept their defeat.
17. When you touch a guy's heart, there's no turning back.
18. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...never mind!" would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking.
19. Guys go crazy when girls touch their hands.
20. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
21. When a guy makes a prolonged "umm" or makes any excuses when you're asking him to do you a favor, he's actually saying that he doesn't like you and he can't lay down the card for you.
22. When a girl says "no", a guy hears it as "try again tomorrow."
23. You have to tell a guy what you really want before he gets the message clearly.
24. Guys hate gays!
25. Guys love their moms.
26. A guy would sacrifice his money for lunch just to get you a couple of roses.
27. A guy often thinks about the girl who likes him. But this doesn't mean that the guy likes her.
28. You can never understand him unless you listen to him.
29. If a guy tells you he loves you once in a lifetime. He does.
30. Beware. Guys can make gossips scatter through half of the face of the earth faster than girls can.
31. Like Eve, girls are guys EUR™ weaknesses.
32. Guys are very open about themselves.
33. It's good to test a guy first before you believe him. But don't let him wait that long.
34. No guy is bad when he is courting.
35. Guys hate it when their clothes get dirty. Even a small dot.
36. Guys really admire girls that they like even if they're not that much pretty.
37. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
38. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
39. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
40. A guy finds ways to keep you off from linking with someone else.
41. Guys love girls with brains more than girls in miniskirts.
42. Guys try to find the stuffed toy a girl wants but would unluckily get the wrong one.
43. Guys virtually brag about anything.
44. Guys cannot keep secrets that girls tell them.
45. Guys think too much.
46. Guys' fantasies are unlimited.
47. Girls' height doesn't really matter to a guy but her weight does!
48. Guys tend to get serious with their relationship and become too possessive. So watch out girls!!
49. When a girl makes the boy suffer during courtship, it would be hard for him to let go of that girl.
50. It's not easy for a guy to let go of his girlfriend after they broke up especially when they've been together for 3 years or more.
51. You have to tell a guy what you really want before getting involved with that guy.
52. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be matured and grow up.
53. When an unlikable circumstance comes, guys blame themselves a lot more than girls do. They could even hurt themselves physically.
54. Guys have strong passion to change but have weak will power.
55. Guys are tigers in their peer groups but become tamed pussycats with their girlfriends.
56. When a guy pretends to be calm, check if he's sweating. You'll probably see that he is nervous.
57. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl. He really is.
58. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
59. Guys don't really have final decisions.
60. When a guy loves you, bring out the best in him.
61. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him.
62. If a guy has been kept shut or silent, say something.
63. Guys believe that there's no such thing as love at first sight, but court the girls anyway and then realize at the end that he is wrong.
64. Guys like femininity not feebleness.
65. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
66. A guy may instantly know if the girl likes him but can never be sure unless the girl tells him.
67. A guy would waste his time over video games and basketball, the way a girl would do over her romance novels and make-ups.
68. Guys love girls who can cook or bake.
69. Guys like girls who are like their moms. No kidding!
70. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
71. A guy's friend knows everything about him. Use this to your advantage.
72. Don't be a snob. Guys may easily give up on the first sign of rejection.
73. Don't be biased. Try loving a guy without prejudice and you'll be surprised.
74. Girls who bathe in their eau de perfumes do more repelling than attracting guys.
75. Guys are more talkative than girls are especially when the topic is about girls.
76. Guys don't comprehend the statement "Get lost" too well.
77. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions but still love them more.
78. When a guy gives a crooked or pretentious grin at your jokes, he finds them offending and he just tried to be polite.
79. Guys don't care about how shiny their shoes are unlike girls.
80. Guys tend to generalize about girls but once they get to know them, they'll realize they're wrong.
81. Any guy can handle his problems all by his own. He's just too stubborn to deal with it.
82. Guys find it so objectionable when a girl swears.
83. Guys' weakest point is at the knee.
84. When a problem arises, a guy usually keeps himself cool but is already thinking of a way out.
85. When a guy is conscious of his looks, it shows he is not good at fixing things.
86. When a guy looks at you, either he's amazed of you or he's criticizing you.
87. When you catch him cheating on you and he asks for a second chance, give it to him. But when you catch him again and he asks for another chance, ignore him.
88. If a guy lets you go, he really loves you.
89. If you have a boyfriend, and your boy best friend always glances at you and it obviously shows that he is jealous whenever you're with your boyfriend, all I can say is your boy best friend loves you more than your boyfriend does.
90. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
91. You can tell if a guy is really hurt or in pain when he cries in front of you!
92. If a guy suddenly asks you for a date, ask him first why.
93. When a guy says he can't sleep if he doesn't hear your voice even just for one night, hang up. He also tells that to another girl. He only flatters you and sometimes makes fun of you.
94. You can truly say that a guy has good intentions if you see him praying sometimes.
95. Guys seek for advice not from a guy but from a girl.
96. Girls are allowed to touch boys' things. Not their hair!
97. If a guy says you're beautiful, that guy likes you.
98. Guys hate girls who overreact.
99. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships

Top Facts About Women

Women need to cry. And they won't do it alone unless they know you can hear them.

Women will always ask questions that have no right answer, in an effort to trap you into feeling guilty.

Women love to talk. Silence intimidates them and they feel a need to fill it, even if they have nothing to say.

Women love to shop. It is the one area of the world where they feel like they're actually in control.

Women especially love a bargain. The question of "need" is irrelevant, so don't bother pointing it out. Anything on sale is fair game.

Women never have anything to wear. Don't question the racks of clothes in the closet; you "just don't understand".

Women hate bugs. Even the strong-willed ones need a man around when there's a spider or a wasp involved.

Women can't keep secrets. They eat away at them from the inside. And they don't view it as being untrustworthy, providing they only tell two or three people.

Women always go to public restrooms in groups. It gives them a chance to gossip.

Women can't refuse to answer a ringing phone, no matter what she's doing. It might be the lottery calling.

Women never understand why men love toys. Men understand that they wouldn't need toys if women had an "on/off" switch.

Women think all beer is the same.

Watch a woman eat an ice cream cone and you'll have a pretty good idea about how she'll be in bed.

Women are paid less than men, except for one field: Modeling.

Women are never wrong. Apologizing is the mans responsibility, "It's there in the bible". hmmm who was it that gave Adam the apple?

Women do not know anything about cars. "Oil-stick, oil doesn't stick?"

Women have better restrooms. Ladies receive the royal treatment in the ladies room. Gents just get a large bowl to share.

The average number of items in a typical woman's bathroom is 437. A man would not be able to identify most of these items.

Women love cats. Men say they love cats, but when women aren't looking, men kick cats.

Women keep three different shampoos and two different conditioners in the shower.

After a woman showers, the bathroom will smell like a tropical rain forest.

Women don't understand the appeal of sports. Men seek entertainment that allows them to escape reality. Women seek entertainment that reminds them of how horrible things *could* be.

If a man goes on a seven-day trip, he'll pack five days worth of clothes and will wear some things twice; if a woman goes on a seven-day trip she'll pack 21 outfits because she doesn't know what she'll feel like wearing each day.

Women brush their hair before bed.

Woman have legs only so they won't leave tracks like snails.

Women will drive miles out of their way to avoid the possibility of getting lost using a shortcut.

Women do NOT want an honest answer to the question, 'How do I look?'

Women love to talk on the phone. A woman can visit her girlfriend for two weeks, and upon returning home, she will call the same friend and they will talk for three hours.

A woman will dress up to go shopping, water the plants, empty the garbage, answer the phone, read a book, or get the mail.

Women are insecure about their weight, butt and breast sizes.

It's monday again!

2010-03-08T15:21:00.004+08:00

Had another funny dream this morning.
Hard and pointless to describe here, but it was funny!

Going out now to look for handsome guy.
'll Blog about something interesting soon!

Check out my facebook for more regular updates!

Bye !

My only

2010-03-04T14:39:00.002+08:00

& I wish that I'm your only too.

Thanks to the fucked up weather,
I'm now at home alone, feverish with stuffy nose.
My whole fking head and body is aching.

2010-03-01T12:56:00.003+08:00

I had those terrible nightmares again...
Give me some love & attention will you?
Will you even notice if I'm gone?

I'm wasting my holidays...

Rants should be wher they belong.
Somewhere noone could read...

Elective

2010-02-28T12:41:00.002+08:00

I am going to sign up for manicure and pedicure courses during the holidays.
They are all so expensive ):

Bye exams, welcome holidays!

2010-02-25T21:39:00.001+08:00

YAY finally finished year one!
2 more years to go!

I dont know if I should ger a job or not.
Where got job for 1 month one...

Changing class, bye classmates!

Miss me ah!

Spell, H-O-L-I-D-A-Y! :D

Too much free time now,

Firstly, am so going to sleep till song song later!

Then.... Idk =.=

What are you going to do during holidays?!

2010-02-22T23:30:00.002+08:00

My Vday gift,

Burberry bear and perfume.

Photo of him, and me.

I want to stop muggingz, quit school,

have lovely kids with my lover and be together forever.

Get working, start a biz, earn money and be rich.

But seriously, as much as I want all these,

I should start thinking about how my life should be.

My life should be more about, me.

Isn't it my turn to be selfish already?

I love to take photos because I am afraid
I'll forget those memories I don't want to forget.
Why won't you take them with me?

Have been thinking of some really silly stuffs
that I didnt dare to share with anybody.
k, I share. I feel that...
having a baby is fun.

OK STOP LAUGHING.

Ohwell, until just now.
Was having dinner at yishun just now.
A small boy sitting at a table beside mine
suddenly started screaming and crying and oh you get it.
It continued for like...10mins?
The mum TRIED to calm the boy down,
but she couldnt do anything about him.
& so I remember some fking bastard's little bro was worse.

&Then, I told Josh, I am never going to have kids.
HAHA total opposite from my initial thoughts.

He told me its the upbringing that's important.
Yes, it is.

So,
I am going to have kids,
and TEACH them like how my mum used to teach me.

FIY,
Mum used to be damn strict.
Sis & me were very well-behaved KIDS.
Er for me, maybe 5 over years ago?

HEHHEHEH.

Happy CNY!

2010-02-18T14:35:00.002+08:00

So how did you guys celebrated cny & Vday?

A belated post but hey, CNY lasts for 15 days k!

This year, there wasn't the new year feel, and its boring.

Well, at least got to get together with friends.

Esp those I haven seen in a while.

If I could have any biz I want, I would want to...

Open a place for ppl to chill, like... Admiral ? :)

Shagged

2010-02-03T16:33:00.004+08:00

All projects are finally done! YAY!

Left with exams and then holidays :D

Had a bad morning today and was irritated with everything.

Went to do some stuffs and went home after that.

Hate staying at home doing nothing for so long.

grrrrzzzzz.

Things are not the same, at least I feel this way.

2010-01-29T01:41:00.002+08:00

Fuck it! I wished that it happened on me, not her... She's stil young! I mean, she's my baby sister.

Btw chia, you are banned from contact lenses!

Heartache

Lifeless blog

2010-01-27T12:30:00.003+08:00

Unglam so what?

Yes I'm fugly so what?

Jesse shitted on baozhen!

I must be confident.

Keep drilling motivations into my mind.

Exams after CNY.

19th, 22nd, 23rd, 24th, 25th.

Done in a week yay!

POM, MECONS,STATS,AFA,POA.

Lets start revision with....POM.

Baby sissy got into NYJC

and school starts tmr.

Congrats yo!

Going to study now,

bye dead blog.

Stop confusing the confused

2010-01-26T01:28:00.004+08:00

Just typed a whole lot of shit here but deleted them away. Gona post them in my private blog.

Icas are boring. Year 1 is coming to the end. Yay 2 more years to go.

So many people asked me : xuan, whr are you going after poly. My answer has always been, get married and live happily ever after. Life is not that kind, I guess I would have to either continue studying or to get my ass out to work. If only fairytales are real and dreams do come true.... Haha!

In a month's time, it marks the first year of knowing you. Time flies.

Night cold world. Night loves. Fuck off hater.

2010-01-22T15:18:00.004+08:00

A blog not updated is boring.

Cny is coming soon yay!
What do you do during cny?

A visit to your grandparents and relatives, have reunion dinner, pay respects, wish each other well in the new year and get this chance to get together and catch up with one another I suppose.

Cny have been the same for me for the past 18 years. Reunion dinner with all relatives over at my place.

Everyone at my paternal side will come back to my place again cos grandma stays with me. Greet elders, get red packets, eat, gamble!

2nd day to my maternal side. Things are much boring there. Not very close w them. They gamble with 10c Nia =.=

3rd day. Going to firiend's house bai nian and gamble.

This year is going to be somewhat similar I guess. Nobody to spend vday with anyway...

2010-01-18T17:42:00.003+08:00

I have found friends whom I know will always be there. I am thankful for their existence and am grateful that they are ever so supportive.

She saw me through so many ups and downs. Whenever I am sad, she will do her best to cheer me up, or just be there. If I am happy, she will be happier for me.

She saw me at my worst, and she was there. When I was at my best, she was also there. Thank you for being by me for so long.

I hope that our friendship will never end <3

Love, bff.

We shouldn't take happiness for granted. I will never let my happiness slip pass again.

I believe.